My STAC Live performance was awful. It was the worst
performance I’ve ever done. I was not cheating towards the audience. I was too
far upstage. I was not loud enough. I did not annunciate and articulate enough.
I did not have a good connection and I went through the scene unnaturally. I do
not know why it sounded unnatural. It may be because I am still unable to
manipulate my current emotions into the lines of the scene. This was a major
player in ruining my performance. I need to learn how to make the scene sound
more natural. It may be because I did not have enough time to rehearse the
scene over and over again to build chemistry. I may have to do another performance
using Practical Aesthetics to see whether or not it works for me. Overall, I’m
extremely disappointed and ashamed of my performance.
Well, overall the performances were bad, but you don't need to be quite so contrite and hard on yourself, you know? Would you talk of someone else's performance the way you just spoke of yours? No no, don't be so hard on yourself.
ReplyDeleteI could hear you just fine the whole time, and while you didn't cheat that is easily fixed.
The crux of the problems are here: " I did not have a good connection and I went through the scene unnaturally. I do not know why it sounded unnatural. It may be because I am still unable to manipulate my current emotions into the lines of the scene. This was a major player in ruining my performance. I need to learn how to make the scene sound more natural. It may be because I did not have enough time to rehearse the scene over and over again to build chemistry."
So why not look at this, and rather than putting on a hair shirt and flagellating yourself, look at it a bit more analytically.
Remember, nothing will be perfect, sometimes things will stink, but always you can learn, always you can improve.
Luke
I'm usually hard on myself. Of course I wouldn't speak about someone else's performance the way I spoke of mine. It would be rude and hurtful. I wouldn't want to hurt someone's feelings. I'm usually hard on myself when I do poorly because I expect a lot of myself, sometimes too much and I get carried away. But yes, I will have to figure out how to fix my problems.
ReplyDeleteAs much of a perfectionist I am, nothing will be perfect so I have to learn and move on.
Well, then if you would never speak to someone else that way, then speak to yourself/of yourself as you would a dear friend.
ReplyDeleteIt is ok to expect a lot of yourself, but surely you can give yourself some room for an occasional kaplap. It does happen.